It's been so long since I've actually had the desire to sit down and write my thoughts down. It seems that whenever I do sit down to organize my thoughts it's because I'm confused or anxious about what awaits me.
If you must know, I recently started a new position with the same company. It's been a huge learning experience because even though it's a lot of the same stuff I did before, it also brings its set of challenges in terms of learning new information and - hopefully - retaining it!
Not only that but, the past three months have been quite interesting. I've done things that I never thought I'd do but I have enjoyed. It's been exciting to live life vicariously and just let things happen the way that they do. I'm a control freak. I always have been, and I'm pretty sure that I always will be. But I've let myself loose a bit and just done things for the hell of it.
I like it. Sometimes.
I think the one thing I'm learning about myself is that I'm not as paranoid and as much of a chicken as I thought I was. Even though I do get nervous and scared every now and then, I'm actually a pretty confident person. I'm glad I'm learning that because for the longest time I always said I was "paranoid" and even though there are still traces of this paranoia, I find that it's not as bad as it used to be.
Life is good. Love is good. and so is the "love".
